I'm so angry myself I can't stop thinking that I
if I tried harder at highschool. I probably would of been able to go to university years ago and gotten a job instead I've wasted ten years of my life going to Tafe and being kicked out of so many courses. if I wasn't such a lazy person my life would have been better even now I'm a lazy couch potato at home expecting one hour of exercise to compensate for the other ten hours that I spend sitting down. I'm a failure and my mothers anger at me is justified because I'm lazy and the pain I've created is self inflicted. The disappointment and anger I have at myself is hard to run away from ten years of wasted life just for the assholes to say I can't do this course when I did it last term. The way I behave I dislike hate my personality trait of being lazy. It's frankly disgusting and I totally deserve whatever happens to me when mum does.