I am really NOT happy with the situation. I know i don't remember much but I swear to god my pdoc said she was putting me on effexor and naltrexone. Well, apparently she just switched out my Ativan for Klonopin, which is good because klonopin makes me sleepy. Only it's scheduled so it's with all my other night meds that they watch me take at 5. Which get delivered at 5. So around 6:30-7ish I was like "screw this" and took the Belsomra (which they trust to take at bedtime) and went to bed. Well now it's 8pm and I am wide awake. S hasn't even gone to bed yet!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

And a couple weeks ago I swear she said she was upping my Abilify but that never happened. Now, I know I'm a little off considering I saw like 200 geese and then passed out in the road and probably hit my head about 10 times over the past few weeks, but I think she's lying to me. I think she's trying to make me think I'm crazy.

And all ****ing day I've been worried about the guitarist that I fked repeatedly from this band that I saw in Concord. Things got complicated (don't they always!?) and all day I've been staring out the window waiting for his band to show up to I looked up this band, and yeah, the electrician they had over had the same sticker on his car as the guitarist!! so I noped da fk outta here, and he even looked similar. Same mustache. Same body wash.