I'm sorry about this thread. My anxiety is over the top about everything right now and I'm afraid of my therapist and my psychiatrist. Nammu I so know you're right, but you are on the spot.. I don't want to lose the freedom to abuse myself. I tried following my pdoc's meal plan for two days and did nothing but cry and panic those two days. Now I've given over my meds and I feel like I've been screwed over because of that.

It's not a med thing I just had med changes yesterday, but I've been having trouble sleeping since April it's just gotten a lot worse over the past couple weeks.

I did leave a message for my pdoc

edit: pdoc called back and she said not to leave the house and come in next Friday for genesight testing to see why meds don't work. She's going to give me Geodon tonight to see what that does. She so badly wants me to go back on Zyprexa but I refuse to binge every fking night for hours and then pass out in the middle and wake up like 3lbs heavier every day.