I officially quit G. I'm worried that J and maybe L will be mad or disappointed. I gave it a month. J hasn't responded to my text saying that I quit. I'll try to reach out again later today.

L's baby is super cute. She took some pictures of him with the blanket I made him. I know I'm biased, but he really is a beautiful baby. I love that she's maintaining some contact with me. Though my body memories are starting to fade. I'm forgetting how secure I was with her. It's like a numbing. I hope it all comes back when she comes back.