I am PISSED. I was just thinking "okay, I'm going to go to therapy and give in," but My therapist obvioiusly hates me and doesn't give a fk and heard I'm in crisis and is like "screw it, I'm leaving." She cancelled today's appointment because "something came up" and next week's because she's "on vacation." So today through the weekend I have no one and Monday-Wednesday I have my case manager and then I'm supportless again.

Some fking ACT team when your T abandons you every time you struggle and thelr on-call line never calls back.

I can't take the lybalvi (the no weight gain zyprexa) because they think I'm going to take a large dose of fentanyl if I'm on it or something due to how the samidorphan works. (Yet they trust me with Klonopin when I abuse benzos????)