They brought over a 40mg geodon capsule with the Belsomra for me to try last night and omg I slept 5 hours. It was broken, but still, it felt so good to not be awake all freaking night.

Zyprexa usually helps me sleep, but when I'm on it I spend most of my time binging+purging and they're afraid if I relapse with Lybalvi I'm going to overdose because the samidorphan blocks the effects of opiates. They're totally fine with me mixing alcohol and opiates with Klonopin though...?

I'm super triggered today because my therapist is a selfish bytch who hates me and doesn't give a fk about her patients and avoids them when they're struggling and she doesn''t know what to do.