no, you're not alone or different in that. i've been in my own mood and couldn't write. i was trying to take about 30 pills with an alcoholic chaser so i was a little distracted.
my appoplgies =)

i too get physically ill from stress and triggers. in fact, our bodies are programmed that way (tho our society would have us think otherwise). your body is a warning system that something is wrong. it pays to listen to it- it is like the fire alarm that says the blgd is on fire.

i was so ill last weekend from triggers and depression i couldn't write my paper... oh wait, that;s happening this weekend too. *sigh*. In fact, it was a trigger that set off the pill episode.

keep breating, try to do things that are good for you - and heed those warnings. kiya... actually i'm MPD and not Kiya right now but I don't know who i am... other than really rrrrow! i'll try to tell kiya to check on you.