Holy **** I can't take this anymore

Why can't I create art... Or build a structure through blueprints, or walk a dog..

What am I supposed to do? Hmm? We are partially Gods. We don't just go in a straight line (Well we do.. That's the point).. To the beginning.

I need people to slap me, while I'm under hypnosis... And facing my darkest demons, to get rid of them.. And see that they are just shadows..