Okay,I get your point, and I'm not looking for any arguments either, really I am not.
Keep in mind there is still hope, don't give up, even though I know how many of the meds. you mention can have nasty to mild side effects. I myself could write a list of all the various meds that were used,some are on your list but not all, and wow, some with nasty effects too.

My main and final point is don't give up on yourself and/or pdocs, I am praying you get to the pdoc you feel most confident with, that is so important.
Life can be a nice place. . .5 yrs ago I would of said that is untrue, when I first melted down.
Just hang in there, you are worth it

Please take care now,

DE