I'm so sorry you're going through this, Scarlet.

I haven't dealt with a T going on maternity leave...

I have dealt with a T going on what I later found out was compassionate leave for a similar period of time. All I was told at first was that R would be unable to make our next session, but she'd be in touch.

A couple of months of limbo followed, during which I posted here, spoke to friends about the experience, and used my journal.

During this time, I had no sense of what was going on...and wondered whether the person who held my safe space would return.

You've built up a lot of trust with L. Her life has changed in a pretty major way, and that's taking a lot of her attention right now. The chances are high that she's not entirely in therapist mode when talking to you.

The people we trust deserve our grace, where possible.

I can hear that you're scared and overwhelmed...and that sounds like it's fuelling the anger.

You can only face what you know is going to happen.
The future comes one step at a time.

You will find a way to navigate this through talking to those who are supporting you.

Take care,

Lost