I’m not doing well. I’ve felt manic most of the day and I’ve been super irritable with everyone. I put a call in to my psych nurse practitioner but of course she never called me back. I can hardly describe the way I am feeling tonight except that solitude is not my friend. I picked up the Rozerem. Lots of bad side effects listed. Lack of sleep and mentally not being able to even get comfortable enough to sleep is really doing a number on my psyche. I despise the psych ER especially at night. The only thing grounding me tonight is a CD of Russel Oberlin singing Händel. His smooth vocal production is soothing. S.B. and C.S. have stopped responding to my texts. I’ve really gone and done it now.

Edit: S.B. called and we had a wonderful conversation about how I’ve been feeling. I cried. I feel like I’ve been having a life crisis. I didn’t know that so much was weighing on my mind.