So I've been thinking 🤔...

And can't sleep again despite being sick.

Why do I abuse my meds (well... med. Whatever.)

Do you abuse your meds? Do you know why? Does it change depending on whether or not you're in an episode?

When I was in my twenties I abused alcohol to escape my anxiety.

My therapist told me it's because I don't want to sit with my emotions, but WHY? I don't think my emotions would be that bad to sit with right now. Maybe this whole med abuse situation is a form of self harm?

Hmm.

If you abuse your med(s), do you know why?