My counterparts in the external agency are leaving. My boss and junior colleague have been speaking with the woman who held my job previously. My junior colleague is even seeing her in person later this week. And I am getting paranoid, wondering if they wish she were still in her position working with them. They said how great would it be if she came back; they're encouraging her to apply for a role with the external agency since there are open positions now.

I don't know. I am just not feeling good lately about my work. There are stumbling blocks and bottlenecks, and I don't know the technical software we're using at all. I have to learn it and there's very little training available internally. It feels like it's been bumpy for me since my arrival and now this? Now they're talking to the woman who held my position, and I wondering what they are saying to her about me.