Thanks Oceana. I completely understand the need for a maternity leave. It's necessary for both mom and baby. And I want the best for L and her baby. I would be more pissed at her if she neglected her baby than neglecting me. She knows that I feel this way as well. I know her leave isn't to get away from me. And yet, I still must suffer while she's off fulfilling her dream of being a mom. (I have the same dream...but my chances are slim to none). I told her last year to not wait on getting pregnant. I supported her in fulfilling her dream because I know what that desire is like. I am struggling through this leave, but that's not exactly why I posted this thread. My fear is multiple leaves. That I wasn't expecting. That is what I wasn't sure if I was up for (still not 100% yet either).