I don’t abuse or manipulate my meds. I don’t have a clue why anyone would. Not wanting to sit with emotions makes since to me. But the whole thing is beyond my comprehension. I’ve stopped meds, many I time but never took more. I guess it’s because I’m afraid to take more. I stopped meds including benzodiazepines because I thought they were doing more harm than good. But that was just my perception. I think everyone’s perception is different, not good or bad just different. I

I feel like you feel judged for that raspberry, I’m sorry for that. Nobody should be judging you for trying to find stability