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Old Dec 14, 2023, 05:28 PM
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Originally Posted by Nammu View Post
I don’t abuse or manipulate my meds. I don’t have a clue why anyone would. Not wanting to sit with emotions makes since to me. But the whole thing is beyond my comprehension. I’ve stopped meds, many I time but never took more. I guess it’s because I’m afraid to take more. I stopped meds including benzodiazepines because I thought they were doing more harm than good. But that was just my perception. I think everyone’s perception is different, not good or bad just different. I

I feel like you feel judged for that raspberry, I’m sorry for that. Nobody should be judging you for trying to find stability
I don't feel judged... just freaked out. Like my therapist keeps on bringing up neurological scarring and one time recommended a med wash... (****ing HELL no!). Luckily my pdoc thought that was a bad idea. Whew! I think a med wash would give me neurological scarring!!!

It's okay if I'm the only med abusing freak on the board. I still can't figure out why I do it exactly. Like, what am I trying to escape? What am I doing! Ugh! Maybe I just REALLY like seroquel. Therapist and I are going to have to discuss this on Monday.
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