I'm sorry you had to go through that. I experienced a therapist abandoning me, too. Took me a long time to get over her. The thought of her still comes up time to time, it just doesn't stimg as bad. AND I'm going through similar with you in terms of my therapist also being on maternity. I do have a huge fear she'll choose to stay with her baby, or she'll come back to work and regret not being with the baby.