Had a good appointment with my therapist this morning. We talked about what my Christmas 🎄 plans were and if I was seeing my parents or not. I really don't want to (because I don't like them and they trigger me hard-core), but feel guilty about canceling another holiday with them, and she made me feel a little bit better about having to cancel with them if I do because it'll be too triggering for me and I'd rather just go to my husband's mom's house Christmas eve and day where I'll be comfortable.

The only reason why my mom behaves herself around us now is because our daughter is twelve. Prior to her it was just awful! And my parents are so MEAN to my husband (and me) and my mom is so scary and angry, especially when she drinks!

I just have a lot of unresolved anger and resentment towards them that I fear will never get resolved because they're always right and I'm always wrong, and there's no convincing of them otherwise.

Ugh. It's really a long story.

So. I don't know. No Christmas with my parents this year again. I can't handle it!!!