I am thinking that I need to do a balloon release or something to just get over someone that I have not seen in a few years.

I am lonely in general and what I found in this man is something I have never had or found before. It was not a good situation because he was married.

I need something to just get past it. We don't talk, he has no social media that I know of.
I saw something once of someone releasing one balloon in the air.
Any suggestions?