I decorated my Christmas tree. It looks very nice. Doing that has made me feel a little better about myself. Now I have a lot more to do to pull this apartment into shape. If I get caught up and have my place nice for Christmas, I will get a huge lift. I should be able to accomplish that. That might pull me out of this depression that I've been in. I'm desperate to get into my "normal," good frame of mind. I've been depressed for weeks. I basically have to work my way out of it. It's a slow, slog.