Full disclaimer: I'm not an advocate for messing with medication dosages without consent from a doctor. It's just not a good position to find yourself in.

I have been feeling really low so I did something I really shouldn't have -- but I do think it's helped.In the past, I took a higher dose of both Vraylar and Effexor, and since I haven't got a doctor's appointment and who knows when I'll see one, I took the plunge and made the decision to up my meds just a day or two. [I have refills and still have plenty on hand from early refills and missed days of taking it (not recent) so I'm not in a fixed position of running out super early]. Again, I don't condone the behavior even in my case, I just felt I had to try something. I do feel a bit better today than I did earlier in the week.

I think I sincerely scared a friend of mine with my depression and mentality. I'm not suicidal or committing self-harm or wanting to hurt others, but I'm really just settled into the condiiton of my life and see no real prospect for the future. Once my mother can't support me anymore (i.e. passes away), I guess that's it for me too. I see a judge about disability in February but I'm not counting on it. I'm really unable to see a way out. I guess my first step is probably to get back into therapy and see a doctor...