@Crazy Hitch I hope you have a wonderful holiday! I'm just a few days into my Christmas break myself. Since I haven't taught since the first part of 2nd quarter, I've got a lot to get done before heading back. But, it's so nice to be able to work on these things at my own pace/when I want to!

@Brentus I'm sorry you're going through all of this but definitely understand where you are coming from. It's so hard to choose between trying something that might give some relief and waiting to talk with your pdoc about it when that is not guaranteed to happen right away and things could get worse between now and seeing them...I hope you continue to feel better.

Yesterday, I left a message at my pdoc's office like the voicemail I received on Monday told me to but have not heard back. This isn't surprising given the nurse's new hours, but is very frustrating since she is the one who told me to call back the next day. I will admit I have been completely spoiled by the level of care I have received from my pdoc and his nurse, but why tell someone to call the nurse's line the next day if no one is going to listen to it to call back? She's back in the office tomorrow so, hopefully, I'll here back then.

If I don't, my guess is I'll end up calling the on call number tomorrow night or over the weekend because there is no way I can wait until after Christmas for a response; the paranoia I left a message about is getting more intense so I want to be able to at least try and put a stop to it before it gets worse. Since it's the worst at night, I am tempted to take 25 mg or seroquel to see if that will help me sleep through it. The problem is they expire in a week so I don't know if that is the greatest idea. If this wasn't the case, I'd probably definitely be taking it tonight. We'll see what I decide. Sadly, no matter what, I know I'll have to sleep with some lights on and background noise going in an attempt to help tame it all.