Does everything need to ‘therapized’? Why does wanting to be cared about by someone who is important to you cause for concern?
I guess that’s assuming she even is concerned. I guess not, it’s more just faction of her job.

Isn’t a therapist supposed to be important to you? If you cancel an appointment that’s viewed in many negative ways. I’m not committed, I don’t prioritize . I’m avoiding something.
But if it is important you’re too needy?

I don’t know. I know in therapy you’re supposed to really look at yourself and understand yourself better, but if feels like I’m pathological for wanting her to care

Thank you all for you responses. I have more to think about.

She’s gone for the next 3 weeks so hopefully I’ll find a balance between obsessively thinking about it and being open to finding a better understanding of myself