Dr. S - I don't even know what I'd say to you if I saw you again. If I emailed you again. I guess I always thought myself more than another case file. But really, I wasn't. I was the same as all your case files. Just because you take/took more care with your job, with how you handle cases than lots of therapist, doesn't mean I was anything more than another case to you. No - that is more about you than me, how you do your job. I wish I would have realized that a long time ago. I'm not sure how much it would have changed things. I'm not sure it could have changed things.

Tomorrow will be 3wks. This Christmas will be the first one where I don't have mom, dad, or mommy (you). I really need to get better sleep.