Despite calling back and leaving a voicemail like I was told to, I haven't heard from my pdoc's office. Between them not being open on Fridays and Christmas on Monday, I've got a long time before anything is going to be done. Using my PRN .5 mg risperidone every day isn't doing crap anymore so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. In my last post, I said I'd probably end up calling the on call number if I didn't hear back today but, in thinking about it, I don't know that this would actually be helpful. Discussions about med changes, or adding a new med, I'm sure only happen in the office so...adding a med, or changing one, never works anyway so the thought of doing this yet again seems pretty useless too, especially since my pdoc has gotten to the point of retrying meds because he's running out of ideas. Gotta love having a brain that stumps both your counselor and your pdoc. It's hitting me that, depending on how this all plays out it could be weeks yet before I get any relief. Given how bad things get by the afternoon/evening, that feels like an eternity to wait. And, the thought of going back to work feeling like this feels even worse.

I just looked at my patient portal and, of the 9 meds this pdoc has prescribed in the last 2 years, only 2 have stuck long term...