This morning, I woke up with the realization that I don't like my children as adults. I thought that by leaving their abusive father(s), they would lead happier lives.
Top that off with my own MI and my inability to communicate with them, I see how much they hold against me. They way they speak to me sometimes (my daughter called me a ****ing pig because I flushed the toilet while she was in the shower) makes me not want to be around them.
I'm told I'm annoying and then I react-respond and make things worse.

No one is willing to seek help so I just keep my distance.

My heart is shut down.

(I have a diagnosis of c-ptsd, MDD and dissociative disorder)

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