And then the spiritual aspects come in.. Things I don't understand.. Things most people don't understand.. There's a soul and shadow, they rotate throughout life.. People make mistakes, change.. It's just a laser show.

And narcissists expect every broken and unfinished pattern to understand itself completely, everyone does... To get what they want.. So dominance and power..

To awaken is seeing the power... To use for good or evil. If you can share it with others and help them..

Selfish and selflessness.. This world is selfish.. But most people are good.. And many of the selfish are broken AF themselves. People just want to survive now - And want to take all that they can get, out of hopelessness, fear, despair "It's all going to end anyways"... That's what I did.. But I was just 16 or so...

Everyone is at no fault, so comes Jesus etc.. Ourselves, and outsider saviours/prophets.. What can't be controlled, can turn in anyone's or all of our favours.. Groups of people.. But we have to use our free will, and take ownership of soul..

Anyways, don't pay attention to me. The universe loves us.

I could have done something for my family if I had one. I do now.. Which makes me feel loved, again - After all of this.. But I have deep wounds that people don't even care to understand without some horrible price of manipulation. It's because everyone is broken. I haven't seen anyone that isn't unless they feel no emotion or empathy.

The Ayahuasca will heal everyone... And then the UFOs will land, simultaneously a spark catches fire in the console and every part of me throughout my life gets ZAPPED equally, in some new special line.. That flashes before my eyes, when I die/am born again..

Any advice is welcome - But none is really needed.. Just don't freak out about my venting.. I'll sit quietly and listen to anyone here with respect and humility etc.. Idk what I'm doing exactly.. But I'm ok..