Bipolar disorder symptoms are a wild ride. Two days ago, I was making sure I was safe. Yesterday, I was down in the dumps but more stable than I felt in the last couple of weeks. Today, I'm back to how this recent mood instability started: euphoria, brain on fire, restless, getting a ton done, leaving the house 3 times in one morning/early afternoon, anger, etc. An interesting twist with these last couple of weeks is I want to buy stuff like crazy; I know it's a common symptom, it just has never happened to me before. Thankfully, somehow, I am only spending gift cards I have been given and seem to be sticking to things I need/nothing extravagant. Somehow, the "not made of money/don't like to spend a ton of money" part of me is managing to keep my spending contained/weirdly realistic and needed. Even though I know I won't (and don't think I'd ever actually want one) part of my brain is saying "let's go get a semicolon tattoo on your finger RIGHT NOW." I could also hear the effects of this in my voice when I was on the phone earlier.

I still feel pretty in control of everything my brain wants to do, but I am also aware it wants to go more out of control than it has ever wanted to before when I've had these symptoms. Hopefully, things won't get out of hand and I can keep using this energy in my favor to get caught up on things I couldn't do because of being so sick for a month and a half.