Where do I begin?

Let's see...for starters, I'm a bit of a mess emotionally. For context: beginning in Aug 2022, I lost one of my elderly family pet dogs, then the following month, Sep. I lost my elderly family pet cat, then in Jan. 2023 lost my other elderly family pet dog. Then last month lost a very dear friend.

Just when I think I'm doing really well with all this natural grief, some memory of any of these past sweet souls destroys that notion and I cry at the drop of a hat.

I realize losing so many loved ones one right after another is A LOT to deal with. And I suppose my amount of grief is normal, but on a daily basis, I feel depressed and very sad. Often I find something during any day that makes me smile, or laugh. But this sadness is quite deep. And I really have no one who would understand the depth and breadth of what I'm going through. So I'm posting this in case: 1) it helps someone else who is in a similar situation, and 2) if anyone would like to add any positive feedback.
What I am also wanting to ask is if there are any free, no charge, at no cost...counselors here on this forum who listen? Thank you for reading this and listening.