You are a creative, inventive, ingenious and resourceful person. May I ask if you are a woman? You mention a lot of orgasms in quick succession, so I assume that you are, but thought I'd still ask.

There is literally a sea of opportunities for someone with your skillset harnessing local LLMs and Stable Diffusion the way you are. And you do not need to leave home: there are more and more wfh jobs in AI. You can still be home for your siblings. Focus not on dealing with the problem you describe, as in "breaking a habit", because habits are much harder to break than to make (build), but on finding employment or at least freelance gigs that will enable you to start earning money again. Other good things will then follow. You can do it. Do not despair, start with baby steps, make progress, and you will get there.