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Originally Posted by RDMercer
Hi
I just stopped in to check on some friends here and thought I'd check in on you too.
You're ok. You may a good decision. You're hurting, but you're ok.
There's lots of us here to talk to.
Is there something you can do for you today?
Is there a movie you want to see? Is there something delicious you want to try? Is there a religious service you want to attend? Is there a service you can watch on YT? Are there friends you can phone? Are there lights or displays you want to see?
If this holiday means something to you, do you want to talk about it on here?
What's your favorite holiday movie? Mine used to be It's a Wonderful Life, and a Christmas Story (It's a major award!), but as my kids grew up, we got into the off the wall Christmas stuff.... Like Die Hard.
RDMercer
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Thanks for checking in on me and continuing to check in on me @
RDMercer
I really appreciate it. I went to service on Christmas Eve and I bawled my eyes out. I didn't even care that people were looking at me especially since I was there on my own. My husband called a lot yesterday and left a bunch of messages, but today he left just one message and it had sounds of acceptance in it- kind of thanking me for everything and to call him some time.
I am in a weird place. I have plenty of people around me, and I am so grateful, but I go with periods of big ups and downs and I think it's my bipolar rearing its ugly head. Night time is the worst so far.
But thanks so much for checking back and looking in on me, nice to know people really care.
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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
Just because you feel bad or hurt doesn’t mean you did something wrong. It takes time and distance to finally realize standing up for yourself is the right decision
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Open Eyes - thanks so much for telling me that, it's something I needed to hear. I was punishing myself really bad on Christmas Eve. I know it will take time, and it's getting better as the days are moving on, but the love is still so strong, and as much as I am thinking how much I know he has to take care of himself and all he had to do is take his meds, I am having trouble letting go. But time heals.