I don't feel I need to go to the hospital but one of my biggest fears right now is that, by the time I see my pdoc next week and manage to find a med that both works and doesn't make me to sick to handle, it's going to get to that point. This has me stressed out for so many reasons, some being:

-I've already missed two months of work for my physical health. I need to get back to work and can't imagine how everything would play out if I had to take off for mental health reasons
immediately having to for physical health ones.
-I think people (possibly even doctors) would assume all my physical symptoms are all a result of my mental health (which is clearly not the case).
-You don't hear many people say good things about staying in a psych ward.
-My cover would be blown. I already regret sharing with the few people I have about my mental health-I don't need more people to know...