Hi John,

Sorry for the much delayed response. I remember my friend referring me to this site when my life was just recently untangling and falling apart.

I'm sorry about what happened to you at work and the fallout of it all. Haven't been to your site yet, as I'm trying to maintain some stability.

I've moved from the west coast to the mid-west, Illinois. Have been staying with a cousin for one week now-- took 3 days by train. Just as well as I seem stunned and a bit disassociative. Didn't have to talk if I didn't want too and yet time to think, space out whatever without demands. I was evicted Sheriff's papers to evict me he didn't give me any filed papers for a summons and/or complaint. Legal aid suggested that since I was moving and packing anyway and that I only had two hours to fill and file a "Stay" on the orders, that I might want to file later on the landlord not following due process. It was all so messy.

I never thought I would be homeless, especially at this point in my life. If I think too much about it, I get sick in the stomach. Ahhhhhh!

This morning I'm off to a job fair. Don't know how that'll work, but gotta do something every week day or I won't be able to get my own place (hopefully a studio) and begain anew another part of my life. My cousin's great, but don't think her husband's too happy about me being here. I don't now him that well and I think (I'm projecting but still...) he thinks I'm just a f**k-up and just crashing at their place.

So first things first: A job. A studio. Simultaneously work on getting my driver's license unsuspended (ticket I didn't pay for speeding about a year ago...I hate courts and hate authority and stab myself in the foot sometimes. This was a big one.)

I'm glad you've got a consultant psychiatrist as I could surely use one. An old issue is coming up...one that stops me from traveling freely and I don't know how I'm going to overcome the fear. It used to be a phobia, but I got help and it was manageable. Now it's popping up in a different way, but it is causing me slight problems.

Oh well, enough for today. Time to find something jobish to wear for the job fair.

Thanks for posting to me.