Are they TRYING to make me STUPID?????

I've been on benzos for years despite opiate use, alcohol use, and a HISTORY OF ABUSING BENZOS. They put me on Dope-amax. They're constantly putting me in stressful situations where I can feel synapses blowing up nerve endings.

I used to be stupidly smart now I have astigmatism and can't drive at night because some ASSHATS designed the roads and the cars (I know we need lights. Even if we just lit everything on fire I'd still see the blurry lines).

Everyone on my treatment team has called me a smartass at some point or another. I'd rather be a smartass than a dumbass so I think I'm going to pretend I'm drinking every day so they stop prescribing Klonopin (maybe even put me back on Naltrexone which I have a genuine interest in now as I have been drinking the past three days and I do NOT want to continue being the same as my psychopathic drunken addicted sperm force-uponer. Yeah. My mom didn't want me. She was on BC when she got pregnant with me).