I lost my **** and yelled at her
“You go” I said shrill and pissed
I was losing my patience
It wasn’t the mother I missed

“What did she say?” She said
And daddy wondered what had happened to me
I thought aloud and said
Why didn’t she put me in an asylum and be free?

Even my father annoys me
Makes me feel low
When I kept the sheets on his shirt
I said “I’m dumb, I know”

And I kicked the bed
and punched it too
It was a tiny mosquito
I was angry at someone, I didn’t know who

I laughed and giggled
Then I wept and and dissociated
Mood swings are crazy
But I wish I was appreciated

For the little things I do
And trying to keep strong
Rather than ridiculing me
For something I did wrong

And saying, “how many times should I tell you?”
“I can’t even trust you to do it”
You seem reluctant like your sister
You postpone and say “screw it.”