I have astigmatism (in both eyes) too and also can't drive at night. Boohoo!

It is strange they keep on prescribing you benzos when you have a history of abusing them. Can you ask them to stop? If topamax is turning you into a moron can you ask to be put on something else? I'm under a commitment right now (have been for the past eight years!) and have to take what they prescribe me, but my pdoc still works with me and doesn't make me take things I don't want to take... (well... not really anyway).

I abuse seroquel and have told my pdoc but he keeps on prescribing me it anyway. It's kind of frustrating. But I don't know. I don't think I'm ready to give it up anyway. I REALLY won't be able to sleep, and it helps my anxiety so much!!!

Are you sure your mom didn't want you?

Just because you were a surprise doesn't mean she regrets having you or anything. If she really didn't want you she would have gotten an abortion or something.