((((hugs)))) Psychosis is a very serious illness, unfortunately. You do need to take your medicine to be better and to have the best life you can have. If you could remember that your doctor does know best in this case, and remember also that one of the hardest things for you will be to stay on your medicine, then you will do better. It is totally normal for someone with psychosis to go off their medicine, or not begin it, because they don't feel/think they need it (anymore.) That is part of the illness, telling you that, and you simply must have medicine for this.