My mom sure always acted like she regretted having a kid, especially one that ended up "triggering" her by having cluster B traits, like her dad that traumatized her.

Sleeping under S's bed with weapons because I feel safer that way. A couple nights ago I heard a bunch of stuff around the window and my first reaction was to grab the crowbar, turn the lights on, look around, yell "I got a crowbar and I ain't afraid of getting shot," and then grab all that shyt and hide under the bed. Fell asleep within an hour.