i was considering talking to her tonight about me going to counselling and addressing the issues she brought up. i was also going to ask her to consider marriage counselling and give it some time to see the changes in me. i feel like she wants it over quick because she might change her mind. she changed her facebook pic to a girl riding a horse in a open field . makes me think she feels free of marriage now. i thought if i told her to reconnect with her friends and not feel like she needs to be caged at home in a marriage and in time she might balance out and we can reconnect slowly.

i know im making things harder on myself but we made matching love chests for christmas 2 years ago we had no idea we had the exact same gift for each other color scheme and all. anyway we put all our cards and memories in them . i pulled out all the cards and read them and every one of the cards up to last november said the complete opposite of how she told me she feels now.