Step 2 could be a hypnotist who could possibly help you manage your fears about contacting a psychotherapist.

Step 3 should be a psychiatrist who can properly evaluate medication for your depression and anxiety.

Step 4 should be the psychotherapist.

If you had a sore throat would you see a foot doctor? If you had cancer would you treat it with an on-line support group? Just think of it as going to the specialist that you need. You deserve to see someone who specializes in your health issues.