Woke up feeling terrible. I told my family to leave me alone - Intestines were feeling bad.

I took phenibut and other things, felt better.. Then I realized I ended up with mild food poisoning - Which is horrible, so I took Pepto-Bismol and a Tylenol 3.

Much better.

Life is difficult - But remember, we are here forever, so better make the best of it. It's a short life anyways, we can get through it - And learn to love it, those missed memories and good times, we've all felt those.. Hope... And this is one of the best possible realities (Especially on antipsychotics - You can do a little shrooms sometimes, just not too much, be a shaman..)..

We get very very dark mental states.. Probably I get the darkest (Cuz I'm too curious - Like crack, coke, heroin, meth etc in the past.. Even though my dad told me not to. I didn't listen).

Wishing you all a happy new year! 2024.. Will be nuts. I have some New Years resolutions - One of them is to always try to obtain a "flow state";

"Flow state, often referred to as being "in the zone," is a mental state where a person is fully immersed and focused on an activity, experiencing heightened concentration and a sense of effortless control."

That's honestly when I'm the happiest. And I don't think I have real ADHD (I knew that already) - Cuz when people write about/explain their ADHD symptoms, Idk wtf they're talking about.. But my problem is not being able to start and complete tasks, unable to prioritize, and seeing the big picture (So when I focus on one task/Such as reading a book - I get severe FOMO for the things I'm missing out on) - So all of that, I need to work on.

With the dextroamphetamine, it always helps me focus.. Cuz I find it hard to focus literally on anything without it, and it benefited my life (Helps with negative symptoms of schiz too, also a mild antidepressant).