I am really not in a good spot right now. I'm not allowed to see MY dying cat, my dad's probably going to OD within the coming days, since I got out of IP I've been binging like crazy and I can't even purge anymore because there's so much blood I'm kinda scared I'll pass out and S will find me and call 911 so I've gained like 10lbs over the past week which is making me LOATHE myself even more, and I still haven't gotten my morning meds.

Sure, when I take my meds at 5pm one day and 5:30pm the next it's my fault I'm "inconsistent" with my meds (per ACT oncall), but it's fine when one day they monitor me taking them at 4pm one day and 7:30pm the next. Fk it, I'm just going to get some winter camping shyt off Craigslist or something and avoid the "treatment team" at all costs. No one will know where I am. Instead of Christopher Knight, I'll be Flaming Boots ('cuz y'all know I'll be stealing propane tanks & shyt in proper fashion). I would rather die of hypothermia or being attacked by a coyote than be forced into this stupid fking society that I obviously do not belong in and can't handle.