All things considered, my first day back to work went well! The kids are getting back into the swing of things with me there pretty quickly and many seemed excited to see me back so that was nice. I sure am exhausted though!

I think my pdoc appointment went well. Today was one of those days where he helpes me to both unpack life and figure out my meds (instead of mainly having to focus on meds). He asked me a really good question about my SI thoughts often presenting as wishes to have never existed this time around-I honestly think it might be a key part to helping me process these thoughts and learn how to cope with them.

I appreciate how much he includes me and my thoughts in the process. Not once have I felt like I've asked a stupid question or brought up a dumb idea with him. Once the pharmacy has it in stock, if I do not have negative side effects, I'll start slowly working up to 400 mg of tegretol twice a day. I go back to my pdoc in 3 weeks. I will hopefully be able to start the med in time to get enough in my system to get my levels tested before my next appointment.