Hi Jesyka I know I’ve recommended this book before to you but in case you need a reminder I really do think you’d benefit from “Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents: How to Heal
from Distant, Rejecting or Self Involved Parents” by Lindsay C Gibson. Anyhow there may be others reading this who would benefit from also reading this book. It’s available from libraries and also included on Spotify premium at the moment.

Importantly this book gives guidance with how to handle such parents, both the legacy they’ve left you with and in the present moment. To paraphrase, broadly speaking the aim is to observe them but not become enmeshed in any behaviour they’ve tried to pull you into. It’s about discovering your true self. You can work on no longer reacting emotionally to their behaviour.

I wish you well on your journey to heal from this dysfunction- it’s a good start to recognise the situation for what it is.