Jesyka, if you can't wait until they all die and especially you dad, as you wrote, that means you are not free from them and remain terribly, terribly enmeshed internally. I hope the book recommendation above provides a lot of help to free you at last. You should not be be wishing for their deaths. Plus, their deaths will not resolve anything for you, so there is nothing to hope for, unless, and I am joking here, you stand to inherit a fortune.