Another sad day. I managed to take a shower. That was my accomplishment for today. My place is a mess. Tomorrow I'll probably hire someone to help me clean up. I hate being in these messy suroundings. It makes me feel worse depressed. Then I just make more messes. No dishes washed in days. My income is small, but I'll buy groceries on credit. That frees up money to hire someone to help me. I'm so short of breath when I do anything. All I want to do is sit and watch TV.