So, it’s a very one-sided relationship that I deluded myself into thinking was 2 sided. Sometimes it seems two-sided but I guess it’s not? Otherwise, she’d start calling me on her own volition, to ask how I’m doing or ask me to hang out. She only used to call me when she needed something (like help her repair her friendship or be the sober driver for her husband’s drunkard friend). Maybe I did those things because of my toxic people pleasing and codependency. Because I thought I was proving my worth to her, to her husband. But I learned that I can’t prove my worth to them…or to anyone. If someone thinks I’m unworthy, nothing I do will convince them to change their mind. That’s a hard pill to swallow. I’m embarassed for wasitng so much time. I’m 53 now. What do I do with myself?