In Post # 50 above, I explained I'm in a lot of pain, and I asked not to be judged. I've been pretty badly hurt.

Did I deserve to be treated better? I think so. But that's just me saying so. There's an old saying: "Self praise is no praise." What I'm here to say is that I'm having a hard time managing feeling very depressed. If anyone suspects that maybe I'm just getting what I deserve, then please feel free to not waste your empathy on this thread.