I'm in a downward spiral due to my out of control drinking after I relapsed about a year ago. I am now either drunk or so sick I can hardly move much of the time. I've been hospitalized four times in the last three months from severe withdrawal symptoms. I'm not taking my psychiatric medications when I drink, which means depressive symptoms are getting even worse. I'm missing more work than before, and I expect HR to talk to me about it at some point. I am going to go to a meeting this weekend, probably on Sunday. I've been referred to the local public mental health clinic, but it's all so overwhelming. I will call them on Monday before going to work.