Hello guys. Sorry for the severe delay. I do want to thank everyone for their inputs.. I truly do appreciate it. There are some things I agree with and some that I don't. I don't agree with going to a therapists aspect of it because I don't think it will solve any of the issues that I'm currently dealing with. I've had a bad experience with therapists in the past as I find myself feeling a lot worst rather than better, and unfortunately getting therapy isn't free so I'm stuck with picking one from a book that may or may not be good, and I don't want to waste time dealing with it. I'm just struggling with issues that are normal for a human being.

I'm just very lonely and craving for a family that I can call my own that I can't have. I don't want a paid friend.